Today, I thought about drowning.
I didn’t. Instead, I fell asleep
in front of an open window
in the rain, woke up wondering
why everything was soaked. Today,
I walked to the ocean from home
in the midwest just for a drink.
Today, I swear I cut off all my fingers
by accident with a knife left
haphazardly in the sink, but then
it was there again and I couldn’t tell
life from dream. Today, I took
a hammer to my hands, just to see
if they would break. They did.