On the Writing Process
by krstaten
I’m always fascinated by what people go through when cranking out a creative work—from conception of the idea all the way through the final edits. So I thought I’d touch on my own writing process.
Though my writing process isn’t so much a process, actually, as it is something like a very drunk and very out-of-shape person attempting to do parkour–kind of all over the place, full of flailing, and almost always very painful.
The way it usually starts is I end up coming up with little snippets of poems–lines, titles, or just vague ideas. And then saving them as Notepad files with incredibly helpful names such as, “Thing,” “Poem,” “Possible Title,” “Thing 2,” etc., so that I can ensure that next time I feel like editing an established project or developing an older idea I will have to flip through at least a couple dozen text files before figuring out which one is the one I wanted to work on.
When I come up with these ideas, sometimes it’s a very detailed idea and/or a rough stanza or two. When that happens, I pursue the idea as far as I can—though usually at that stage it’s not going to get farther than a couple (what I hope to be) well-thought-out lines and some filler. Sometimes it’s just a prompt or a title that I want to work with. Sometimes it’s literally just an idea–no actual lines or detailed concepts, nothing to work with other than something along the lines of “Poem about ketchup as a metaphor for death. Line about rotting tomatoes?”
I guess what I’m trying to say is that my writing non-process is basically a giant disorganized mess and I’d like to say no one understands it but me but more often than not I don’t understand it either.
The process does start to move forward eventually though. At some point, the actual writing happens. This usually starts with me closing my eyes, mumbling words and phrases that I think might sound good, taking a few deep breaths, and just letting myself feel the poem in my body. Which sounds like a bunch of hippie dippy nonsense, but that’s kind of what it’s like. If I can feel the poem, there’s a much better chance I can write it.
Sometimes this happens with a whole new piece, but more often than not I dig through one or twelve of those files titled “Poem” or “Thing” and find one that doesn’t repulse me in that moment.
And then, when I feel like I understand the poem, I write it. With actual words. I write the words, and I delete them and write different ones. Sometimes I write words and I don’t delete them but I still write different ones. Sometimes I’ll write two or three versions of the same stanza and keep them all so that when I go back to it later I won’t remember what the hell I was trying to do.
Sometimes I structure a poem as I write it, and then completely change the structure later. Or keep I keep the structure the same. Sometimes I write it all in block form and fight with structure in an entirely different writing session. I write until it feels complete.
Not finished, mind you. Complete. It feels like it begins, continues, and ends in a way that makes sense. It might have as much poetic value as a smashed dung beetle, and I might think it doesn’t deserve to ever see the light of day, but it feels like it’s a full piece.
And then I don’t touch it for at least a week. I have to give myself enough distance that I’m not constantly reciting my favorite lines in my head to see how soon I can make myself hate them.
When I’m ready, I go back to it. Sometimes I like it as is and only make minor changes. More often I hate it and stuff it away again for a few more weeks (months, years, millennia…). Ideally, I find something worthwhile in it, so I make the necessary major edits and call it finished. Then again sometimes during the editing process the entire poem gets rewritten into something so different that it’s unrecognizable from its previous version and I have to give it a few more weeks (months, years, you get the idea) before I decide if I like it at all.
But I always try to start with finding that something worthwhile. It might be an idea that’s horribly written but could be made into something good, and that idea might become the basis for what is essentially a new poem. Sometimes it’s a couple lines with a really interesting voice and tone, and I reshape the rest of that poem to fit that voice.
What all of this means is that sometimes I end up finishing a poem in about an hour, sitting down at that first writing session with a fresh idea in mind and write it to completion and end up liking it as is, and other times it takes me an absurd amount of time, to the point where even I don’t have patience for my own abysmal failure to meet any kind of deadline.
But if, after all of that, I feel proud of what I’ve written, I post it. At that point THIS process starts:
Except that I’m finally getting better about the part where I don’t write anything for a long time in between those beautiful moments when I discover I hate everything I’ve ever written. I’m getting better at just sitting my sorry self down and writing anyway. I think that’s the best way I can measure my progress as a writer right now.
And I just hope that someone somewhere feels that what I’ve managed to struggle to write is meaningful.
And that’s it. That’s my mess of a sorry excuse for a disaster of a not really writing process.
Moral of the story: I’m starting to believe 80-90% of writers don’t actually know what the heck we’re doing. Most writers I know don’t have a plan. We just wing it. Sometimes it turns into something and sometimes it doesn’t, and when we’re very lucky, it turns into something that connects with other people. I think I’m learning to be okay with that.
If anyone has a writing process they’d like to talk about, I’d love to hear it. Especially if it’s for poetry, but I’m fascinated by the writing and editing process of all kinds of work. Feel free to share!
Your post makes me feel so much better about my own process – I generally don’t know what I’m doing either. I’m more of a fiction writer, but I had a chuckle when you mentioned the file names of your ideas. I tend to do the same thing and it makes for an interesting search a few days later and the slight thought that you might be losing your mind..it’s like, I know its there somewhere! I think my process is more of a visual process: if I can’t see the scene or characters in my head having the conversation, I usually have a hard time writing it. The same goes for poetry: I usually go for the clear, precise images.
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The more I pick the brains of other writers the more I’m convinced that there’s not a single writer out there, no matter how good they are, who doesn’t feel like they actually don’t know what they’re doing most of the time. Which is an oddly relieving feeling.
I’m glad I’m not the only one with the lazy and incredibly unhelpful naming system, though.
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i try to set myself a goal to write a poem a day and draw a picture to do with the poem as well. I find I spend a bit of time thinking about the topic, and spend maybe the entire day coming back to it and going away and coming back to it and going away. Making little edits each time I do, trying to make it sound like it has a flow i’m happy with. Then I stare at poem and think about what it makes me want to draw. Sometimes I have an idea I really like and I draw the hell out of it for hours. Sometimes I feel like i can’t be bothered and draw with minimal effort. Sometimes I avoid the task all together and miss a day because I got high and got lazy.
The whole process takes me a day though. And then I publish it on here and go back to it to read along with a few others depending on which ones were the most popular. Sometimes going over other poems i’ve noticed people look at on the statistics. But usually once its published. I leave it completely as it is. I very rarely make any changes unless I feel absolutely compelled to (because of a spelling mistake or mistype) I like the idea of it being a single project, that i start and finish in a day. Representing I guess what I felt on that day. But I don’t want to taint it with feelings from other days. That piece to me becomes a slide of sorts. One I can return to for insight on what kind of person I was the day i wrote it. Compare it to how i feel now. And if it inspires something new because of the change i write a different poem about that change rather than change the piece i’ve made in the past. The quirkiness and the views we no longer hold in old poems is an interesting thing to observe for me. A sort of personal mind map that I can explore.
Awesome post! I enjoyed reading it. I have also enjoyed observing the process of making a piece. 🙂
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I’m glad you enjoyed my post! Sounds like you’ve got a much more concrete and consistent writing process than I do. I always tell myself to set a daily goal, but my schedule is so weird that it’s almost impossible. So I try to be happy with doing SOMETHING writing-related at least almost every day–whether that’s just brainstorming for a while, or writing down a really awful first draft, or just listing possible ideas.
It’s really cool that you’ve got yourself into such a strong daily writing/drawing habit, though!
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i haven’t thats the problem. I keep having lazy days (which i didn’t want to do) But i guess the only answer to that is a bit of self guilt and hate myself into trying harder 😛 I’ve never been good at seeing something through. So i’m just trying to keep it going.
I found it interesting to read through a different way of doing things. I might try write some poems to leave and look at again in the future. Have a set category maybe of ones that i want to change over time.
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Lazy days are okay, I think. I mean, keeping up a schedule is HARD. Writing every day is HARD, especially if you’re trying to write something fully complete every day. I think it’s okay to cut yourself some slack. The only time I think missing days in your schedule is a problem is if you start going, “Well, I didn’t write anything the last two days, I’m not going to bother trying anymore.” Which clearly you’re not doing, so I think you’re probably on the right track.
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I hope so. I would really like to fill up my sketch pad from front to back with complete pieces for the first time ever in my life. I have thousands of unfinished and ruined pads half filled with crap lol and i guess you’re right 🙂 i’m entitled to my lazy days, so long as i dont take the piss 🙂
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